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It really sucks when once you've gotten to know someone, he/she transfers away. There goes another friend. And it's really hard to keep in touch via technology! Some may say technology can help people keep in touch but in reality would you bother to send messages to over a hundred of your "friends" via email? No. Anyway there's nothing much to say really, except for the fact that i'm trying to convince the staff at my school to allow me to take art as an elective (extra) subject next year. Fingers crossed for that.

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4:04 AM

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Okay I'm gonna sound like some emo kid in this post but it's just something that has been on my mind now. Hmm you know how when you're still young you're so innocent and ignorant about the harshness of life till it happens to you? Yeah. Well (i'm kinda quoting something from 500 days of summer now) in a movie i watched there was this couple and Summer was talking about her past relationships and her asked her,

"Did you even ever have a boyfriend?"

"Of course."

"What happened? Why didn't they work out?"

"What always happens. Life."

Yeah so if that never happened to you, it will. If it did, well, join the club. A good friend of mine said Enjoy life while you can. It's rather long, but short as well It's true. Life's too short to waste but when you have too much time on your hands it seems so so long. Loadsa people say live your life to it's fullest, make everyday count but what does it really mean? Am i the only one wondering what is the purpose of our existence? All we experience in life is pain, suffering and eternal confusion (that is, excluding the Buddha who had obtained enlightenment). Maybe that's just me. I'm not trying to say life sucks or I wanna end my life right now it's just a thought.

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6:24 AM

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Torque:

HEY so sorry marcus!! Mistook you for a girl. Haha. Hey I don't think life sucks i just think that if it ended now, it would really suck. I don't plan on wasting my life away so hopefully i'd become as cheerful as ty.

Moving on, this are my results for today

mathematics- 66 or 67? Can't remember.

hcl- 43.25 (entire year's average would be 48)

total science (incl bio)- 59

My poor bio performance was all thanks to my forgetfulness. UGH. I didn't study those tough notes mdm vaili gave us on reproduction and birth defects so i wasted 15 marks out of 30. Failed it. Hope my year-round performance in science would be able to pull that up to at least a B or an A. Fingers crossed.

Tried charcoal sketching the other day and it was a lil rough. Learned that charcoal is good for our body as it absorbs toxin and harmful substances in our body (0r so my mom says) AND LOLLY LOVES IT. She was licking her chops after a couple of chucks the size of a 20 cent coin. Hmm. When i asked my mom why WE (humans) don't consume it. Easy. ITS DISGUSTING.

Look at it.

would you eat that??

wow this is called charcoal sketching. I wanna be able to do this! Envious!

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2:20 AM

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This is a pretty short post dedicated to replying all the tags

Torque:

Hmm I will think about it, thanks loads. You're lapat aren't you? xD

Nic:

I understand that but it's just weird ya know? It's hard to umm... express my feelings? Yeah I'm doing pretty fine i suppose just pretty confused. I guess you can say that my life is pretty UNDETERMINED right now. My mom doesn't really check my phone it's just when she borrows my phone (to call overseas) she'd read the INcoming messages and occasionally my inbox. Sorry for the confusion.

Speed:

Words of wisdom, thank you grand consultant! I guess i should pull myself together and get on with life now eh? See ya! x)

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5:45 AM

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It was okay in the beginning, with everyone hustling about while ty and I stood away from the bustle and observed. Everyone seemed to be playing their part in unpacking the foodstuffs, getting the pit ready, all except us and the birthday girl. Well anyway it was pretty fun the entire time. The food. The GLORIOUS CAKE. The games. The giggles. Awesome time. The crazy bunch (excl ty and i) incl some other of our classmates went to sentosa the next day and got awfully sunburnt!! Seriously. You could see the hot red smears of burnt cells across their faces and arms. Jewel's one was really bad. Back to the party. We took hell lot of pictures (for memories!) and chatted the night away. Sadly it was ended with an abrupt goodbye from ty and I at around 10.20 x(

The cake looked a lil like this one

OH and we got a lil musical box that played "happy birthday" for her. x)

Got almost all of my results back today so here goes

English- 73

HCL- 53

History- 81

Geography- 75

Literature- 58 WTH

Science (phy/chem)- 67

Art- 95 yay!!

Home economics- 79

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5:30 AM

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I strongly believe that if I were to die now, i'd die with regrets. There are so many things that i regret doing but I do not have the power to go back in time to change my past actions that i've regretted. It's so strange how time changes things. A few months ago i was in HK missing him. Now i'm not even with him anymore. We hardly keep in touch. It really sucks. Time makes you realise things too. Things you would not have realised before. I don't feel like typing much cos my spacing button has stopped working thus using the onscreen keyboard thingy is such a bother. Please leave comments in the cbox- perhaps mention things that time did to you. Its just a 'lil something to think about for now.

bye

I agree that it's impossible to be treat your ex the same as a friend after a breakup that's why i'm wishing we'd meet each other and fall in love again - what's wrong with me? Sometimes i miss you and sometimes i don't

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8:20 AM

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SO SORRY i haven't been updating in FOREVER. Mainly due to exams and last minute mugging. Its the last paper tomorrow! (art) YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!! xD

The papers were fairly easy, of no challenging status exp for bio perhaps? The fantabulous (please note sacarsm) teacher of ours gave us this set of notes on reproduction including birth defects and DNA shit that was not even found in the textbook! I totally forgot about those notes and since bio was only 30% of the science paper I focused on physics/chemistry. Damn. 9 marks got blown away by my forgetfulness. DANG. I have high expectations of my art tomorrow hopfully I'd be able to accomplish it and not dampen my mood.

I don't mean to gossip, but this is really starting to get on my nerves. A bestsie of mine "dao-ed" (sorry i cant seem to find a synonym for this word) me and ty AGAIN!! 3 of us were supposed to go out and catch a movie in fete of the end of exams, but she pulled out a day before! Dx She always seems to avoid going out. All these excuses and whatnots. Oh whatever I don't even feel like talking about this.

signing off

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8:13 AM

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Okay so our parents are overseas and left Aunty Vergie to take care of my brother (16 yrs old) and I.

Unfair treatement

1. When we were supposed to go to our grandma's house, she kept bugging me and asking me who was going to fetch us there. I told her my brother was supposed to be the one informed and asked her to ask him. But she kept asking me and i was like, wth, cant she ask him i already said i didn't know!
2. On sunday my brother wanted food from mc donalds so he asked her to ask me to order for him cos apparently, he was TOO TIRED. I told her to just ask him to call himself and why it was always me (THE YOUNGER ONE) whom had to do all the shit. She was angry and asked me to CALL THE HOTLINE TO ORDER FOR BROTHER DEAREST. I was buzy at that moment doing math so i told him that since he was the one whom wanted it, he should order it himself. She said in an irritated voice, "Goh Qian ah, You brother wants this. Aiyah, gimme the number! You go order yourself i'm not going to order for you." What in the world did I do? Reject going around ordering for my brother like a freakin SLAVE?! AND GOT SCOLDED BY HER? Maybe i'm too pissed off to find faults in my actions. please tell me who was wrong here in the cbox.

Thanks.

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11:34 PM

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OhMyGosh.

I sooooooo love this song- because you live by jesse mccartney. Its an old song, so some of you might know it but i love it cos it just.. gives you this twinge in your heart. Like makes you feel all gooey and soft, like you're in love?Okay maybe that's just me. Here are the lyrics: (I'll highlight those parts that give you the 'feelin')

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

It's soo insanely sweet and romantic! Do go and listen to it. x)

another awesome song is catch me demi lovato

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10:57 PM